Work has been a little crazy lately and I am blessed to have this sweet older woman who volunteers in my room twice a week. She and I have become close and she asked me a question today that got me thinking "So what are your plans next year?" Being the planner that I am, I would usually have a five minute answer but not this time. In my mind all I could think about were my fears:
*How am I going to have energy for 26 first graders(All with various and sometimes demanding needs!) and my own children when I get home.
*Will I be able to make enough money for daycare and still have enough left over for our family? What if I have to take another pay cut? (This has become apart of AZ teacher's yearly norm!)
*Who will watch the baby?
*Does supermom really exist? (You working mom's out there reading!!)
*I wish baby Sev had family here!
I'm lucky to have a lot of working mommy friends out there who do ..Do it all! I seriously look at them like super heroes and strive to have the energy and optimistic and selfless attitudes that they have. Hopefully my fears go away and I can enjoy thinking of our future "schedule" but right now I have the blues about it :( Not sure if that's normal or not. I think part of my anxiety is also due to the fact that we don't have any family out here. Knowing a grandma is there when baby has the sniffles and I can work is a nice peaceful feeling.If any mom's out there are reading this let me know how you do it! :) I'm a little freaked out...eek!
Its really normal to be nervous about all those things...there's so much to think about and anticipate as you prepare for your little one. Just keep reassuring yourself that everything is going to work out! If you want to chat about things...give me a call soon :) xo
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